Ceebs blogging atm because of exams, and Migara constantly demoralising me.


Oh Faris.

So I don't know if I'm the only one but I'm pretty much over, and have been for a while now, for a number of reasons:

1. They're not funny anymore; the novelty has worn off
2. Most of them sound fake
3. They're all very repetitive, i.e. today, I did something nice for my gf/bf, they broke up with me, or some other form of irony
4. Most of the people who these bad things "happen" to deserve it anyway


"The gutter may profess its love then follow it with hesitation,
A stronger girl would shake this off in flight and never give it more than a frowning hour,
But you have let your heart decide Loss has conquered you,
You've won one too many fights wearing many hats every time,
But you wont win here tonight,
You've made it through the direst of straits alright,
Can you help it if plain love now seems less interesting?
You haven't changed an ounce in my eyes,
And I cannot lecture you,
And does anything I say seem relevant at all?
You've been at the helm since you were just five while I cannot claim to be more than a passenger,
Let the good times end tonight,
Just a moment or two from now,
Not a mind will retain even a trace,
Of the thoughts that I struggled to tell
And how our stack of cards just fell,
So settle this once and for all,
The light no longer shows the cracks around my door,
And I have no lantern to light your way home tonight"
Girl Sailor - The Shins

A - Z

I feel the need to write, to draw, to do anything. I want to write in my diary but I have too much to say and my hands are too tired. I should do something productive but I can't bring myself to it. I waste too much time. Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my life away but I don't know what to do about it, but when I stop and think about it I haven't wasted my life away. In my 15 years I've done more than some people will do in a lifetime. I don't know what to do with my time right now so I've been posting blogs like crazy even though I have nothing worthwhile to write about. I love making lists so here's my A-Z of the year thus far.

Alexandra - You always have been and always will be one of my best friends.
Beauty - I've learnt to look past outer appearances.
Catcher in the Rye.
Depression - I had several bouts with you. You changed me and my life. You brought me closer to some beautiful people. I'm pulling though you with their help.
Friends - I've learnt who my real friends are.
Guys - A few have come in and out of my life this year. I'm still learning.
Hope - I've regained it.
Inspiration - There's so much of it around me.
Jewellery - I want more.
Love - I have so much love and have realised that there are people who love me too.
Nailpolish - I'm hardly ever with out it nowadays.
Obsessive - I can be at times.
Personal Project - Doneski.
Queen - Freddie Mercury is amazing.
Rebellious - I've had my badass moments this year.
Storms - I love them. Everything's so much cleaner afterwards.
Time - I waste it.
Vampire Weekend - Favourite. Band. Ever.
Wavy hair - I've put down the iron and have started embracing my natural curl.
Xrays - They always have and always will make me nervous.
Yoga - My new love.
Zhlub - I have really bad social skills.

Exam Schedule



Delegates, superman-ing that ho is not in order!

I've put my "internet life" to the side lately because, well, a lot's been going on in my "real" life. Things are slowing down a little now because exams are in two weeks. Eeeeek! So last week was the first ever MRISA M.U.N. at my school. Only two other schools came so it was waaaaaay smaller than THIMUN in Singapore. Because of the size and the fact that it would be the first ever MRISA M.U.N. my expectations were really low, but I actually ended up having a really good time. I made new friends and got to know people better, please ignore all possible (sexual) connotations. Although at times I was a little lost and confused I had an amazing time and can't wait for the next M.U.N. Some of the highlights were notepassing and the superlatives - in which I totally cleaned up: in my GA I shared "Most likely to take over the world" with my neighbour the delegate of Cambodia, and in the plenary I was voted "Most flirtatious female delegate" and I shared "Best couple" with the delegate of China. M.U.N. left me with lots of memories and a ridiculous amount of work to catch up on. 
Apart from M.U.N. things have been quite good. I'm much happier now than I've been in ages, and I owe that to a lot of people. When shit got bad they were there for me and I thought I was alone they pulled through and were there for me. For that they'll always have a special place in my heart. I don't know how to thank them.
So yeah things have been pretty good lately, but the other night somebody said some things that really got to me. I'll hope I'll be able to sort things out with him maturely, but he really needs to just mind his own business. He thinks he knows everything but he knows nothing about me at all. Anyway I'm not going to be one of those little bitches who writes shit about people on their blog.
Ohohoh, I also have a new obsession: tumblr. I've been stalking a few people on it and I'm thinking about getting my own.
"There is a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it’s not giving up. It’s realizing you don’t need certain people and their crap"
If you like me, look up.You like me. You like me. Look up, if you like me. Look up, if you like me. Look up, if you like me.